Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Up to my neck in pills
Life was way to hectic lately for us to drop off the script to the pharmacy hence missing two days. I am now paying for not being organised.
I hate being ruled by my drugs. I've had it up to my neck with them ( see photo, it is literal).
Honestly though, my body tells me when I need my medications my tremors get so bad that the spasms actually hurt and burn my muscles. So I kind of get desperate for the tablets.
I have a nice little routine of a morning, my lovely husband puts the kettle on for a coffee and hands me my three meds for the morning. If for some reason that kettle isn't on almost straight away I become like a big ogre and I want to pounce. I almost feel like an addict GIVE ME MY DRUGS.
I hate that I get sick because of the tablets and I hate that I am sick without them.
I want to get CLEAN so to speak. I want to try alternative therapies. I no longer want to put toxins in to my body. I have no clue what they are. At the moment, TV has ads on that ask "Do you know what the active ingredients are in your medication?" I can't even pronounce them, I don't know what they are, what they do and what long term effects they are having on me. When I miss two days and I feel as sick as I do right now, it bothers me. What have these drugs been doing to my brain to make me feel like this when I take that drug away. Its scary.
So what natural therapies would I be interested in?
Trigger point therapy
I wonder what else there is?
I am scared to be on medications and I am scared not to be. This is my life at the moment. To take or not to take, that is the question?